My thoughs

Well, This post of the day is kinda confidential and private but since
you didn't know me personally and it's like I'm just talking to a
ghost and personally, I did't like the idea that somebody is reading
this blog, but hey! It's like no one will read this 'coz I think nobody
will care since they didn't personally know me and I hope I can just

private this soon.

April 4, 2015
Have you ever experience being compared? I hate it and It sucks! It
just hurt my feelings everytime I think about that though, that my
dad just confessed (well not that much)  to me that among the
three of us (siblings) I'm his hatest child, or least of favorite.
Honestly, It's hard to write this though and feelings in this blog
because who knows! Maybe my dad is readng this or any of my
family member but for me... who cares? Like, this is mine and this is
my blog page. Maybe you owe my life but my life is not yours, so
back off! Well my dad just said to me that I didn't have any traits of
a good child unlike my eldet sister that always bully and making me
down, because my dad remind me that she is  responcible,
respectful and quiet unlike me, there am I, wild, loud, fun adn noisy.
But I also wanna remind him that I'm just being me and I'm just
enjoying and loving my life and actually my sister didn't love what
she is doing. Pakitang tao lang sya at pinag mumuka nya lang
akong masama sa harap ng magulang ko, Okay it sucks! I'm used to
that feeling and there is nothing new about it! Well I think I should
stop typing now, baka kung ano pa masabi ko dito. The only reason
why I type my feelings in this blog because I need to let this feeling
go, hindi pwedeng naka ipon lang sama ng loob ko sakin kailangan
ko lang isulat 'to para pahimasmasan ako kahit paano and I think
also need my friends today para sabihan ng problem ko, so mas
lalo kong mararamdaman na, I'm not alone at may taong
magpaparamdam sakin na malaga ako. I'm also not that type of girl
na magpapadala nalang sa emotions and spending her time
overthinking about something, kase minsan nagiging out of control
ako dahil sa nararamdaman ko at maraming akong bad decisions
na nagagawa dahil sa galit. I don't wanna regret anything so I need
to move on and talk my with my friends on skype, my second squad
called "trios" because they are much good listeners and advisers to
me when It comes to my problems compare to my riginal sqaud
called "banals". Don't get me wrong but I think mas mahihimas
masan ako sa trios kase minsan hindi nila ako ma intindihan and
sarcastic pa sila eventrough I'm serious but they also give me
hapiness and joy naman that why I love both of my sqaud equally.

x

First week of April

April 2, 2015

Love me like you do. This song was so addicting and it drives me crazy. Love me like you do is the soundtrack of the movie Fifty Shades of Grey, which I haven't seen yet and I have no interest on watching it further. Well, So today I spend my day on our rooftop (bc I lived in a condo) while having awarm up strech up and exercises to gain a healty lifestyle and also riding a bike with my sister while obssesively listening to love me like you do, I did this routine because I spend sooomany day on my internet and gadgets. So I should get up to have a healthy lifestyle and motivative music.

April 3, 2015

So yeah, Today I spend my night reading "11 ways to forget your ex- boyfriend" written by: "haveyouseenthisgirl" on wattpad. Well, It sound pretty much bitter but I didn't actually, plus I've never been in a relationship with someone bc I'm too young and I didn't like that idea at the same time. So I still didn't know that feeling of having an "ex-boyfriend". Well anyway the story was so amazing! So their is a mysterious person sending her an eleven ways on her locker to forgot the guys who dumped her but as the story goes she met another guy and eventually fallen in love with him, so at the end of the story, Sena (the main character) have a phone call from Allen (her ex) that the 11th way is that dare to fall in love again. Which mean the mysterious person sending her ways to forget her ex bf, is actually her real ex-boyfriend, because her ex-boyfriend had this certain disease so his boyfriend broke her heart in another way. And omg! I wasn't expecting that amazing twist! I really love wattpad stories because the stories we're mind blowing and oh, I also have stories I've worked on wattpad and I'll just tell you about that soon! But goodbye for now cause I really need to get a life. Bye again, see you soon!

love,
Nicole...

Worst April Fools EVER!

April 1, 2015

Today just declared a one of the most "worst" april fools day ever! Okay this morning a woke up and decided to fool my friends that my crush just sent me a message on facebook (which is not true) so instead, I'm gonna make an edit that my crush really sent me a message, so I opened my facebook messenger and search his name and scrolled some of our messages (about school stuffs and projects, obviously) So I screen captured it and I'll edit some words into goodnight or something then I'll send it to our group chat so in that way my friends will going to be fooled.

But, what I didn't expect is that... I accidentally sent a like sign to him without any conversation before and eventrough i'll delete it, He can still see it!!! I LOOKED LIKE A STUPID STALKER, STALKING HIM, ARGH. I was so embarrasing and Instead I have to fool someone, I fool myself. That was so stupid.

But not only this time, I've done sooo many stupid and embarrasing stuffs infront of my crush. Hmmm... Lets just call him Dane. Cause I'm so lazy to tell you guys my story with him (one sided story) because  I'm not in the mood today and I'm so pissed off. I'll just tell it to you guys, maybe next time.

Sooo, to reduce my stress from what happend to day, I just painted my nails black and did a karaoke at home and suddenly Mira visit our house together with his nephew Nathat and we talk in our rooftop telling me I have to take care of her clash of clans.

Good day everybody! I hope your day is and not just like me. Hahah! By the way I don't really need april fools day because everyday of my life is a complete joke.


love,
Nicole...

Youtube Love #LastWeekofMarch

March 29, 2015

Woah, It's been 10 days since the summer started and I need to do my my summer goals like beautification, getting taller and more skinny and sexier for the summer bikini season. Before it's too, late, I should now start it, cause I haven't even done anything seriously and I'm too exposed on my gadgets, So today I start avoiding gadgets and do my scrapbook and do my beauty routine such a s putting baking soda in my face, body and teeth for whitening the putting lime, and also d idsome exercise and stretching for extension of height at being fit at rooftop at nighttime with my pjs while drinking dink and talking serious with mom at the rooftop about dad,life having a husband (Not boyfriends) but it still annoys me though.

March 30 ,2015

Youtube Obsession! OMG! Ryan Higa a.k.a. nigahiga and SuperWoman a.k.a. Lilly was so amazing!! They are so down to earth and funny to watch!



 

Long time no see, BEST FRIEND!

March 28, 2015

It's been a long time since we are apart as best friends, but our hearts as friends we're never been apart...

Three years ago when I was in 6th grade, after being apart from Essy and Sophie on 5th grade (because they are in the same section and I'm the only one which is from a different section without a friend)

So I met her from a group project and she is my group mate the suddenly we should make the project during break time so I decided to join her at our lunch time and suddenly quite surprised because I saw my friends from the other section (who are Essy and Sophie) is together with her friend (Louice).

It was quite surprising seeing both of you friends be together. I mean isn't it a coincidence? I asked Sophie why isn't she and Essy on our usual spot she just answered that our table wasn't there and I looked at our table and I heard it right. It wasn't there. So the five of us stayed together--Oh! not just five. There is a new foreign student in our batch and we are so friendly to introduce our selves and be friends with her and Her name is Alex :)

So the six of us stayed together and forever, Me, Andrea, Essy, Louice, Sophie and Alex. We called our squad "The power of six best friends" or "JAIDAS" (our initials) I was so fun and memorable having my 6th grade squad. Even trough Andrea was the only one who is my classmate on our squad that is why we became close friends.


Until we are in 7th grade. Me, Andrea, Isaiah and Alexis, we're both on the same section but sadly Essy on the other one and Sophie at the other.


In that way, Sophie find better friends on her section while Essy on the other hand never gave up on us, even through she has few friends in her section she didn't even gave up on us and I admire her because of that.

On that way, Andrea and I became more close at each other and further, 7th grade is finally over and while enjoying my summer vacation on 2014 a sad news broke my heart that Andrea wouldn't be able to enroll on our school this coming 8th grade because she is heading back to her original home place in Bulacan to join her twin sister at her school, It's sad for me to accept it but luckily I did. I mean we've been friends for a very long time.


So 8th grade has passed and finally over, I missed her a lot and we've decided that this summer, we should see each other again together with Essy (because we are clan mates together, haha!) We missed her very much and enjoy our short time bonding at fairview terraces.

       Left to Right: (Me and Andrea)

                 Left to Right: (Essy, Me and Andrea)


Today, March 28, 2015,

Seeing your old friend again after a year is the best feeling ever. By the way, I never consider her as my 'old friend', she is my friend even trough we are apart from each other.

I really did miss you best, let's just keep in touch in social medias and Hope I can see you again 'till next time! :*

love, 
Nicole...

My summer week #FirstWeek

March 23, 2015
I have so many scheduled things to do today because it's a free time and the things that I haven't did since school day, because of my business is i'm gonna do now.


March 24, 2015
Summer duty, Rest Days like that. and also trim my bangs and did baking soda whitening because of my skin color lols.


March 25, 2015
Summer breeze everyone and got obsessed in exercise to get skinny for summer body and clash of clan rehabilitation center pls.


March 26, 2015
Attended the STSN graduation with Mira for the sake of her crush on the higher level (haha she is so obsessed) and I just went on the graduation for the sake of supporting my friend on what she loves. (which is fangirling over her crush. By the way, #GoodbyeZaynFrom1D


March 27, 2015
Okay, today should be the day that I'm gonna be with Mira at school to get some documents from the school for her summer class she will be gong she plans for voice lessons but it's too late, She said the voice class was already full and I'm also planning for some summer class, guitar or piano lessons for more proficiency as a musician and also martial arts (but not taekwando!) because you know that nowadays it's already hard to go on somewhere... to ride a jeep and even walking the street! Because we don't know! Bad strangers could be beside us or a snatcher that keeps on eye at your precious gadgets. We don't know the could be beside us and we should know what to do and what to act. It's better to be safe than sorry,specially me as a commuter and loves to go on a mall often.  that's why I wanna find some classes  like that, but sadly I can't find a perfect one that has an affordable offer and just near on where we lived. But sadly I can't find one so I'm stucked watching Nat Geo's survival stuffs because my dad also love watching them :)


So, that's it for a week with,
Nicole...

Rest for Summer

March 22, 2015

I'm so freaking tired right now. I haven't took a summer rest since yesterday because of that wild sleepover (haha!) and I hate being tired, My whole body hurts though because  Then what I've hate the most is my skin color! Ugh It's a shame mostly to the white people in america, because I HATE SUN AND TANNING. 

Because every time I play or swimming with the sun surrounding us, My skin color gets golden dark and I hate it! It doesn't match on what I look. Most of Asians love to be fairer and not tanned and sadly I'm one of them lol.

So I just took a rest and grab my iPad then suddenly I open my social media accounts and got shocked about it because my notification got so full! It's like 40 notifications popping out, I guess?

Because my friends, classmates, batch mates and etc.started uploading our photos on our last day of class and some video from our swimming and sleepover. Well, I also uploaded some photos on our sleepover and swimming yesterday to fair for them, hahah.

So that's it for my third day of summer! Hope everybody got a great summer! 

sun kissed, 

 Nicole...