My thoughs

Well, This post of the day is kinda confidential and private but since
you didn't know me personally and it's like I'm just talking to a
ghost and personally, I did't like the idea that somebody is reading
this blog, but hey! It's like no one will read this 'coz I think nobody
will care since they didn't personally know me and I hope I can just

private this soon.

April 4, 2015
Have you ever experience being compared? I hate it and It sucks! It
just hurt my feelings everytime I think about that though, that my
dad just confessed (well not that much)  to me that among the
three of us (siblings) I'm his hatest child, or least of favorite.
Honestly, It's hard to write this though and feelings in this blog
because who knows! Maybe my dad is readng this or any of my
family member but for me... who cares? Like, this is mine and this is
my blog page. Maybe you owe my life but my life is not yours, so
back off! Well my dad just said to me that I didn't have any traits of
a good child unlike my eldet sister that always bully and making me
down, because my dad remind me that she is  responcible,
respectful and quiet unlike me, there am I, wild, loud, fun adn noisy.
But I also wanna remind him that I'm just being me and I'm just
enjoying and loving my life and actually my sister didn't love what
she is doing. Pakitang tao lang sya at pinag mumuka nya lang
akong masama sa harap ng magulang ko, Okay it sucks! I'm used to
that feeling and there is nothing new about it! Well I think I should
stop typing now, baka kung ano pa masabi ko dito. The only reason
why I type my feelings in this blog because I need to let this feeling
go, hindi pwedeng naka ipon lang sama ng loob ko sakin kailangan
ko lang isulat 'to para pahimasmasan ako kahit paano and I think
also need my friends today para sabihan ng problem ko, so mas
lalo kong mararamdaman na, I'm not alone at may taong
magpaparamdam sakin na malaga ako. I'm also not that type of girl
na magpapadala nalang sa emotions and spending her time
overthinking about something, kase minsan nagiging out of control
ako dahil sa nararamdaman ko at maraming akong bad decisions
na nagagawa dahil sa galit. I don't wanna regret anything so I need
to move on and talk my with my friends on skype, my second squad
called "trios" because they are much good listeners and advisers to
me when It comes to my problems compare to my riginal sqaud
called "banals". Don't get me wrong but I think mas mahihimas
masan ako sa trios kase minsan hindi nila ako ma intindihan and
sarcastic pa sila eventrough I'm serious but they also give me
hapiness and joy naman that why I love both of my sqaud equally.

x

First week of April

April 2, 2015

Love me like you do. This song was so addicting and it drives me crazy. Love me like you do is the soundtrack of the movie Fifty Shades of Grey, which I haven't seen yet and I have no interest on watching it further. Well, So today I spend my day on our rooftop (bc I lived in a condo) while having awarm up strech up and exercises to gain a healty lifestyle and also riding a bike with my sister while obssesively listening to love me like you do, I did this routine because I spend sooomany day on my internet and gadgets. So I should get up to have a healthy lifestyle and motivative music.

April 3, 2015

So yeah, Today I spend my night reading "11 ways to forget your ex- boyfriend" written by: "haveyouseenthisgirl" on wattpad. Well, It sound pretty much bitter but I didn't actually, plus I've never been in a relationship with someone bc I'm too young and I didn't like that idea at the same time. So I still didn't know that feeling of having an "ex-boyfriend". Well anyway the story was so amazing! So their is a mysterious person sending her an eleven ways on her locker to forgot the guys who dumped her but as the story goes she met another guy and eventually fallen in love with him, so at the end of the story, Sena (the main character) have a phone call from Allen (her ex) that the 11th way is that dare to fall in love again. Which mean the mysterious person sending her ways to forget her ex bf, is actually her real ex-boyfriend, because her ex-boyfriend had this certain disease so his boyfriend broke her heart in another way. And omg! I wasn't expecting that amazing twist! I really love wattpad stories because the stories we're mind blowing and oh, I also have stories I've worked on wattpad and I'll just tell you about that soon! But goodbye for now cause I really need to get a life. Bye again, see you soon!

love,
Nicole...